Aging
As I've aged, I've
become kinder to myself, and less critical of myself. I've
become my own friend.
I have seen too many dear friends leave this world, too soon, before they understood the great freedom that comes with aging. Whose business is it, if I choose to read, or play, on the computer,
until 4 AM, or sleep until noon? I will dance with myself to those wonderful tunes of the 50, 60 &70's, and if I, at the same time, wish to weep over a lost love, I will.
I will walk the beach, in a swim suit that is stretched over a bulging body, and will dive into the waves, with abandon, if I choose to, despite the pitying glances from the jet set.
I have seen too many dear friends leave this world, too soon, before they understood the great freedom that comes with aging. Whose business is it, if I choose to read, or play, on the computer,
until 4 AM, or sleep until noon? I will dance with myself to those wonderful tunes of the 50, 60 &70's, and if I, at the same time, wish to weep over a lost love, I will.
I will walk the beach, in a swim suit that is stretched over a bulging body, and will dive into the waves, with abandon, if I choose to, despite the pitying glances from the jet set.
They, too, will get old. I know I am sometimes forgetful.
But there again, some of life Is just as well forgotten. And, I eventually remember the
important things. Sure, over the years, my heart has been broken.
How can your heart not break, when you lose a loved one, or when a child suffers, or
even when somebody's beloved pet gets hit by a car? But, broken hearts are what give us strength, and understanding, and compassion. A heart never broken, is pristine, and sterile, and will never know the joy of being imperfect. I am so
blessed to have lived long enough to have my hair turning gray, and to have my youthful laughs be forever etched into deep grooves on my face. So many have never laughed, and so
many have died before their hair could turn silver.
As you get older, it is easier to be positive. You care
less about what other people think. I don't question myself
anymore. I've even earned the right to be wrong. So, to answer your
question, I like being old. It has set me free. I like the
person I have become. I am not going to live forever, but
while I am still
here, I will not waste time lamenting what could have been, or worrying about what will be. And I shall eat dessert
every single day. if I feel like it. MAY OUR FRIENDSHIP NEVER COME APART,
ESPECIALLY WHEN IT'S STRAIGHT FROM THE HEART!
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